Burrito up 2016
Disclaimer: This post (surprisingly) saw a particular curse word surface far too frequently. Therefore, #NSFW #PG13 #R21
So this photo was taken on 31 Dec 2015, as we counted down to the new year. Which oddly, should be called ‘old year’ now that it is already 2017. Or maybe, ‘history’?
Fuck this man. I am growing old WAY too fast. I really need to learn to treasure all that life’s got to offer me, and all its worth. I have been too caught up with the micro details, that I have failed to appreciate the finer things in life…. the bigger picture of things….
I know I was on the brink of depression a couple of weeks ago, but I think with the help of FF, talking to many other people, and some distant prayer, I have gotten over the phase. (It’s funny how I’d diagnose my own alleged state of pervasive and persistent low mood that is accompanied by low self-esteem and by a loss of interest or pleasure in normally enjoyable activities)
Anyhow, as I reflect back on the year 2016, I must say that it’s been one of the weirdest years for me, as a 24-year-old human being with only said years of experience. But I’d like to think that 24 is not exactly a small number… It’s a number and an age where you’re fucking one-quart way through your entire LIFE. And you’re supposed to have it all figured out, but the sad fact is, you don’t.
I’m still clueless at what exactly am I passionate about, or where my talents really lie at. I am still a sucker for chocolates and cakes, and I still don’t treat my body with the same kind of love I’d gladly shower on everyone else but myself. I still have anxiety issues when tasks are on-hand, and I still am an anti-social being, trying to act like a flamboyant party kid. I still suffer from emotional grievances, and I still give people the key to dictate my feelings.
But I figured, that’s being ‘human’.
It is probably alright to have to deal with all these emotions and crossroads of life. I once read somewhere that even your parents, and your gramps don’t even know what the fuck they are currently doing. Because, they’ve never been fifty before, nor eighty…… So everyone is merely on their own pilgrimage through this World; at their own pace, with their own strategies.
I am sure we all will definitely fuck up along the way at various junctures. But it’s even more vital to use a minute and reflect back on how the entire year has been. Not just how the year has treated you. But also, how have you utilized it? Or, how have you impacted others with the year entrusted to you?
I surely have a long way to learn how to love others more than my material items and wealth. The need to be detached from these “worldly goods” remain imperative for the incoming new year. Well, before I lose any other friendships… :(
So despite 2016 being a prick in the ass for me, (and possibly for the World too?) there have been milestones the past year that are definitely worth remembering.
1) 17th June 2016
FF and I selected our HDB flat at Bidadari. Making it a sort of a commitment although we aren’t married yet. And this has been one of my main priority in the past year. On how we can continually build ourselves, as individuals, and collectively, our relationship to gear toward the Sacrament of Matrimony.
2) 3rd September 2016
My beloved sister tied the knot with Andrew (who is now my brother in-law). And although they’ve been dating for the past four years, we knew little to nothing about him. But after their marriage, strained relationships have thawed, and I am really grateful that things are changing for the better.
3) 23rd - 25th September 2016
I solo YOLOed in Hualien, Taiwan after a business trip. I never thought I would have enjoyed being alone this much. I felt super recharged after the trip, and I loved the fact that I could be one with my thoughts and actions. It did help too, that I can speak a decent amount of Mandarin, plus the Taiwanese people who were just so ever warm and hospitable.
4) 16th - 23rd October 2016
FF and I traveled to Hanoi, Sapa and Halong Bay. It was honestly a hectic vacation if you asked me, but when both of us were up on Mount Fansipan, to revel at the majestic beauty of God’s creation, took away all the frustrations we had with the trip and with each other. It definitely was so worth our every penny spent. And I’m thankful that was a great way to end our mini Northern Vietnam expedition.
Day 1 of 365
(2017 edition).
How shall I make it more fulfilling? Let’s hope I will not take a whole year before I figure that out………….
Cheers to the new year! xx.
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Bring it on, suckers.