Dear God, do you have a wicked sense of humour?

30 minutes ago, I had an intense conversation with Mom.

Mom: Don’t get me wrong…. But can I just ask, regarding that day when you guys took your keys…. what was the pineapple for?

Me: Oh, just like “huat” lor. Rolled it in…. sort of…

Mom: Is it some Buddhist ritual that you were partaking in? Who bought it? You asked for it? Since we know it is wrong, you should not have done it. Why did you do that?

Internally, I was fighting.

• Fighting the urge to bark back and defend myself.
• Fighting the urge to let my emotions get to the better of me.

Not gonna lie here. I was slightly upset for the lack of faith my parents had in me. After that episode, while I was alone in the shower, I thought to myself, “Ah, I cannot wait to move out! Where I can do the things I choose to do without anyone giving me their opinion on how I should live my...

Ho ho ho! Merry Christmas! (kinda soon).
But nah, let’s try that again.

Ho ho ho! Look who’s back.

You may begin singing ~

Before you start to judge, I have been intending to pen down my thoughts in this space for a long time now. I actually enjoy journaling quite a bit! It gives me the opportunity to revisit my past thoughts and feelings. And these bring back (mostly) fond memories…

Truly, after re-reading the last few posts of 2018, it was all about our wedding preparation and the challenging setbacks that tested us in a particular time and space.

As a postmortem, I can proudly declare – WE SURVIVED!!! (and we are still happily married as of now lol)

The standard reply I give to people who casually shoot the “how’s married life?” question… Let’s just say married life is a lot more fun than the wedding day itself. (Yup, go ahead and quote me.)

House Planning

With one of...

“The perfect family doesn’t exist, nor is there a perfect husband or a perfect wife, and let’s not talk about the perfect mother-in-law! It’s just us sinners.” A healthy family life requires frequent use of three phrases: “May I? Thank you, and I’m sorry” and “never, never, never end the day without making peace.”
— Pope Francis (Meeting with engaged couples, Feb. 14, 2014)

It’s been stranger than usual.
The thoughts, the emotions, the feelings…

When they said happiness is fleeting, I scoffed. A little too early maybe.

It’s now mid-July 2018. And that leaves us with five and a half more months to the wedding day… Yet, our issues seem larger than they were 6 years ago when we first started dating.

Sometimes I question if my expectations are out of this world? Maybe, I genuinely am the cause of disagreements and all the negative connotations associated with disappointments. Maybe I...

Where do I begin?

I used to think, “Ah, I’ve planned so many events in my University days. Wedding planning will be a breeze!”

Obviously I was too naive.

The past 6 months of being an engaged woman has been a blend of excitement and anxiety. (It’s funny how both can cause you to experience sleepless nights………………..)

• Spiritual preparation and journeying with Father Terence
• Choosing the right vendors (e.g. Photography, Videography, Bridal gown!!!?! etc.)
• Venue
• Timing and Itinerary
  
• Chinese wedding customary practices

The list is non-exhaustive. There really is just far too many things to account for while planning this ‘once-in-a-lifetime’ affair. And although I may sound like a whiny brat, don’t get the wrong idea………………

I am actually enjoying the process!!!!

Despite the whirlwind of intense sourcing, and liaising, and following-up with multiple vendors. I am actually assured...

Say whuuuuuut?

2017 is coming to an end already?!

It’s kinda funny how I return to le blog to pen down some thoughts on 31st December every year….. I mean, despite it being a brand new day each morning, there seems to be that extra mental push for a deeper reflection on the very last day of the calendar year.

To facilitate what I would term as ‘mood framing’, feel free to utilize this Spotify playlist. Haha I swear, it’s the best background music to have on repeat in a cold and rainy month like December.

So…………… drum roll please

A quick review of Cam’s 2017

1. Travels!!!!

Undeniably, the reason why 2017 has been memorable and flew by so quickly is because I have been jet-setting so much.

Even though it was primarily for work purposes, I had the opportunity to extend multiple business trips and visit people like Nathalie in Leuven, and of course my dear parents in Hangzhou...

Disclaimer: This post (surprisingly) saw a particular curse word surface far too frequently. Therefore, NSFW PG13 R21

So this photo was taken on 31 Dec 2015, as we counted down to the new year. Which oddly, should be called ‘old year’ now that it is already 2017. Or maybe, ‘history’?

Fuck this man. I am growing old WAY too fast. I really need to learn to treasure all that life’s got to offer me, and all its worth. I have been too caught up with the micro details, that I have failed to appreciate the finer things in life…. the bigger picture of things….

I know I was on the brink of depression a couple of weeks ago, but I think with the help of FF, talking to many other people, and some distant prayer, I have gotten over the phase. (It’s funny how I’d diagnose my own alleged state of pervasive and persistent low mood that is accompanied by low self-esteem and by a loss of interest or...

It is 26 December 2016.

Since my last post till today, much has happened. And until now, I am still in a state of trance at what really occurred…. feelings of imbalance between my innermost feelings vs. my outer being + interaction with people.

I did, however, reduce the series of unfortunate mismatches to show a little more of my true emotions. But I think it doesn’t sit well with most people. Cos that’s not the way the usual Cam behaves…………………..

Then, there is this.

Anyhow, I will be back again soon to pen down a Thanksgiving post for the past year, before we herald in 2017.

I’ve not come back to this platform for about 1 year now…

It is 11 December 2016 today.

And the year 2016 is once more about to come to its fruition soon.

I was just sharing with Brother Dexter (who is also a part of Seraphim et Agape) on my apparent ‘quarter life crisis’‘… Because I have been a corporate slave for 1.5 years now, and I sincerely feel like there is a lot more to life than merely working the hours away, and earning some form of keep. But the more onerous question then is, what exactly is life about?

Why the fuck were we placed here on this Earth for?

I know very well there is a reasoning and a form of service to be rendered to God…. But I just have not been able to see the big picture as of yet. So it’s not only frustrating, but highly troubling too. :(

This world is filled with plentiful distractions.

Money, Power, Consumerism, Materialism, Appearances……………………
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I started out this year with pretty simple resolutions:

1. Volunteer at the Assisi Hospice
2. Find a Part-time Job
3. Train with Aquathalon - Mon (swim), Thurs (run), Sat (swim)
4. Treat the my Body with respect

Proud to say, I probably succeeded at Points 2-4 hehe.

But I might have to re-look into the feasibility of accomplishing Point 1…

ANYWAY, as we bid 2015 goodbye soon, I have decided to take a moment to reflect and be thankful for the past year. (With the help of my previous blog posts, it sure takes me back in time… I could envision myself sitting in Leuven, all cold and miserable, with the pathetic heater and ridiculous walls that were not sound-proof)

Here is a nostalgic walkthrough of each month’s highlight, the past year:

January 2015: Homecoming

Fei Fan flew back from Frankfurt to Singapore + My Homecoming from Europe + Andrew Krygsman’s Passing

February 2015: Ohana

Using...