Daily Grind

So…. SEA Games 2015 is coming to an end real soon. The only match I will be looking forward to is the Men’s Water Polo match tomorrow, since YY is playing. (Read: Act like I know someone in the team hahaha)

So proud of Terna & Sara (both from SMU Sailing) for winning their Gold medals yesterday!! And to the Dragon Boaters who albeit had no publicity, fought hard and showed the entire DB Community what SG can be made of. Lastly, the canoeists who showed how strong their mental and physical capabilities are. I was really proud of my CJC Canoeing senior, Steph for bagging I-don’t-even-know-how-many-Gold-medals.

Watching all the athletes race made me reminisce the crazy times I had to train in DB. Ok la true, it’s nothing compared to what the Team SG athletes have to be put through. But I sure do miss that kind of intensity.

To be honest, people who tell me I am not fat/very fit already blahblahblah sometimes don’t quite understand what’s going on in my head. I will smile it off most of the time, but at the end of the day it’s me against myself. There’s just so much going on inside my head. Knowing I can do so much more, give so much more. But this one-heck-of-a-useless left wrist now is just such a big burden.

No hand gripping exercises = hello flabby arms.

I miss the times where my hand veins could be seen because it reminded me of strength. I miss the times where if I twisted my arm to look at my elbow, the deltoids and triceps would give me a little peek and smile back. I miss the times I could walk with my tummy leading me, without feeling ashamed. I most definitely miss the times I did not have bra fat nor a tyre when I hunch over :( #boo

Many people closest to me think I am crazy and obsessed. But sometimes I wish they would just support me in achieving whatever I really wanna do. Oh wellz. I am hoping that in the next couple of weeks to come, I can get back to the daily grind once more!

Cheers to a range of exercises without hand activity. (how limited, srsly lol)