With each second
All his life he’s been told
He’ll be nothing when he’s old
All the kicks and all the blows
He won’t ever let it show‘Cause he’s stronger than you know
A heart of steel starts to growWhen you’ve been fighting for it all your life
You’ve been struggling to make things right
That’s how a superhero learns to fly
(Every day, every hour
Turn the pain into power)When you’ve been fighting for it all your life
You’ve been working every day and night
That’s how a superhero learns to fly
(Every day, every hour
Turn the pain into power)
The past week has been exceptionally trying.
I felt like a forgotten block of decaying wood; all dried up, but left with so many duties still on hand – group projects (x4), birthdays (x4) exercising/trainings, sending bro Tan to camp and back (x2), taking care of household chores, individual assignments (x2), girlfriend commitments, church, part-time job with a sprained wrist…
My sleep patterns fell from 7.5 hours to 4 hours a day and t'was my body finally crashed.
Fell ill with flu and sore throat but that was the best thing that has happened to me. Because I finally paid it back by sleeping 18 hours in one day.
On hindsight, tough situations are always much easier to swallow. But where I was one week ago, I just wanted to shun the whole world.
Everywhere I went, I faced my toes. I refused to look at anybody in fear of flaring up or breaking down.
And indeed, nobody will understand the kind of stress you have to deal with. Yet, everyone wants a piece of your time. So you distribute it out to everyone, until you are left with nothing. Then every night you retreat into your room to find solace when you’re left alone. Like a volcano, you erupt tears of lava. Tears of welled up emotions that you had to keep in throughout the entire course of the day….
Sometimes I wonder if my mild depression status occurs because I cannot manage my own expectations, or I cannot manage other people’s expectations of me.
“Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart. If we could just remember this, I think there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world.”
– Frank Warren
Oh wellz. I am just glad it’s over for now. Happy unofficial graduation, and Happy Good Friday to all my Christian friends all over! We celebrate His death for us so that we might live. :’)